Today while my boys were eating lunch I told them "One of my favorite things about Christmas break is getting my boys home with me all day!" One of them responded back smiling, "well I think one of the worst parts of Christmas break is being home with you because you're boring and don't let us do what we want." (sniff sniff...)
I know he wasn't too serious....but this afternoon I'm wondering.....will they ever really realize all of the ways I give my heart to them? Somewhere in the mix of the "is your homework done-- did you practice the piano-- did you check on Lu Lu-- can you help the baby" will they remember the games, popcorn movie nights, story time, special treats, projects, birthday parties, classroom visits, outings, and tuck ins? Will they ever really know that my day is spent trying to make sure they have a home that is happy and loving- a place that provides them opportunities to read, create, invent, and feel peace? Usually it's Dad who takes them on weekend trips,to ball games, and other adventures while I stay home and take care of Caleb. I wonder if they'll ever really know that part of the reason those adventures are possible is because I stay home while they go. I know I'm not a perfect mom, but my heart's in it one hundred percent!
I wonder if sometimes I don't always realize how much Heavenly Father does for me. He continually surrounds me with so much evidence of his love. I don't think I thank him enough for the wonderful things that are made possible through him... today I'm noticing!
Dear Mom,
Just in case I never told you... THANK YOU! Thanks for staying home while we went hiking with Dad. Thanks for always being there. Thanks for creating a home that was full of love, happiness, creativity, warm brownies with sprinkles, and tradition. I noticed.
Love,
April
4 comments:
oh...my heart was feeling for you today. my kids have said things like that before. they will understand as they get older. you ARE a good mom who puts 100% into your mothering. i was touched by the little note at the end to your mom. :)
Oh April...I can't imagine a better mom than you. They need to spend a day with me and then they will realize how good they have it with you:) Thanks for sharing all your heartfelt thoughts and feelings. You inspire me as always.
I love your posts. You make me want to be a better person and mother. Becky has found a great friend in you. Thank you!
April...this is Alanna's mom. I don't usually leave comments on any blogs other than Alanna's and Ashley's... so mom usually works...but I would almost feel ungrateful not to leave a comment somewhere on your blog because everytime I read any entry it seems I am moved to tears and reminded of everything important and worthwhile in life. You are beautiful, amazing, and inspirational...actually there just aren't words! Thank you for touching my life in such a profound way. ( and may I add...if you have such an effect on MY life...an almost stranger...I can only imagine what a tremendous impact you have had on those four precious boys you do everything for....they may not appreciate it now but there is no question in my mind that one day you will reap the rewards of being the devoted mother that you are...you are truly amazing!)
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